I just realized …

I just realized I haven’t written in about a week. I have been busy reading other blogs, playing with my puppy (3 months old), making new friends here through swimming class. TODAY, my outlook is good. I’ve had periods of sadness, anger, anxiety … the gamut that usually torment me … but not for sustained periods. The blogs of others, especially  Jaen Wirefly’s (You Know You’re Borderline When …) posts on mindfulness and Gypsy’s (Through my eyes: Adventures in Boreline Land) reminder to think positively. Others have shared progress going on in their lives (Mandi) and just shared some humorous anecdotes about their family and children (John the Aussie). There are others and you’ve all kept me moving forward!

My husband now is employed, almost full time, although still no benefits, so that takes some of the worry off. He is not pressuring me to go back to work yet. I want to, but don’t feel the time is right just now. Making friends and building that support network, here in a new environment, is what I need to do first. The people in our community are very friendly and welcoming. I’m putting forth the effort to make friends, which I never really did before. I’m struggling with parenting a 16 year old boy – who is a great kid, but is still a 16 year old boy with all that that entails. Thank God I’m not a single parent!

Having more than a day or two in a row without the yuk is kind of scary, but good. I’ve been having days with short periods of distress that I’ve been able to stay with and not succumb to. I appreciate the good days and know the bad days won’t last forever. But I know this “thing” won’t ever leave me for good also, and that’s somewhat distressing – but is what it is and not an excuse to check out. I do have a son to set an example for. 

How to Grow

OK, now I’ve  found my lost follower, my day turned around some. I’ve realized that losing followers will happen. But I would like to attract more followers also. How? I started blogging after reading http://gypsy116.wordpress.com/  Through My Eyes: Adventures in Borderline Land and thought blogging might be a good way for me to do some writing about my thoughts and experiences. If anyone has any thoughts or suggestions about what has worked to increase their following, I’m reading to read! I read someone else’s blog and they are up to 5,000 hits  after 2 months! How on earth does that happen? Well, I’d rather that people read mine who have similar interests or issues (you know what I mean). I hope we all want to be there for each other in some way or another. I didn’t realize how much it meant until I briefly lost one person, and then saw how happy I was to regain them. Abandonment issues I guess. Anyways, I’m looking for ideas and feedback … tags? categories? topics? titles? Thanks again to everyone.