Do I make life better or worse for others?

Tonight, I sat on the deck with my dog and wrapped her rope around my neck and pulled. I want to be here, but I don’t want to always be “that way” or fighting with others.

I stopped when I got to the point that choked. I thought of all the kids who play the “choking game”. I don’t want my life to end that way.

Just hit a rut.. I’m still here and plan to stay.


8 thoughts on “Do I make life better or worse for others?

    • I tried lots of positive affirmations before getting out of bed today. Most days aren’t so bad, until others are up in the house. Also, no luck on the job front. Even Home Depot wasn’t interested!

      • No, and it’s been a week and a half since I gave them my paperwork. I’m calling them this morning to follow up. I’m taking the exame to be a postal worker this Friday. But I don’t really want to do that. Besides, I’d hate to have a relapse and “go postal” even if it wasn’t at work. I really would like to get the other job. And I’ve finally got all my paperwork to see about transferring my teaching credentials to CA, but I’ve heard that CA doesn’t always accept them. Wish me luck!

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