Raging lunatic. The term is familiar to most people. Those of us with mental illness may call ourselves crazy (lunatics) and have episodes of raging. Before I was ever diagnosed with anything, I wished I was diagnosed as crazy – because then my behaviors would make some kind of sense. And that brings me to today.
On Thanksgiving, I had commented on a post about my anxieties around the holidays and how I often fly off into a rage. Another commenter replied to my comment and suggested that perhaps I might want to video one of my episodes of raging to see what my actions look like – RAW, from the outside.
I wonder about doing this, if I could even coordinate it with a camera being at the ready, if my husband or son would record it if I was raging at the other … the emotions. Would it help – hurt – trigger? Has anyone else done something of this kind before? If so, what kind of result were there? I’m intrigued yet it scares the h#ll out of me to think of what I would see and to know that’s what my husband and son see when I’m like that.
The Ugly Truth.